The Waiting....

This clinical trial process has absolutely been about "hurry up and wait." That has been the theme of my life for the past 6 months. I am currently in the "wait" zone again. The research team decided to run a test on me that usually is not done until I am in the hospital bed waiting for the transplant. The last two patient's transplants have failed. My heart breaks for them. They both rejected quickly. In those failures they made progress. The doctors learned that they need to run certain labs before patients are listed. These tests that I had done can possibly give them an even closer look into how I might respond to a transplant. Progress being made over the last few months is amazing! They are still learning so much with every new patient that comes through their office. It has been two weeks! I am hoping to hear some news soon. I am really learning patience. I am learning that I care about people I know nothing about. I am learning that I truly want success for other people even if it is a failure for me. If these tests show them that I should or should not continue with this, then that is called progress. The two patients that recently rejected, it was not in vain. It was not a waste of islet cells. It was progress.