Thursday, May 31, 2012

A bump in the road

Yesterday I received the news that I did not want to hear. Kerri, my research coordinator, called me to say my Panel Reactive Antibody test came back too high. She did not have to go any further. I knew exactly what that meant. That this was the end of the journey for now. Kerri remembered that I had been sick at the time of the test and said that was good and she was going to look into re testing me. Apparently being sick at the time can mess with the results. She also said this is a test that the results can fluctuate over time. So maybe this is not the end, but right now at this moment I am at the end. Am I ok with that? Not completely at this point. Am I working on it? Yes! I am truly thankful I got this far in the process. I am truly blessed for how hard this team of people have fought for me to have this procedure. It was life changing to have a group of people for the first time in my life understand what I am going through with this disease. I feel good knowing about all the work they are doing to try and find a cure. I am a firm believer that God knows what is best for my life and he has a reason and purpose in every decision that is made. I have totally put my faith in him during this process and continue to do so. I have peace knowing that His hand was in this. He knows where this road will lead and I will follow. I have spent 12 years with my type 1 and I can spend 50 more if that is what I need to do. This is the end of my blog!!!!! Stay tuned for more updates:)

2 comments:

  1. You have such a positive attitude and your faith in God is amazing. You are an inspiration to many and I am glad to call you my friend.

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  2. Thank you so much Marcia!! That means a lot:)

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